I’m enjoying this structure and challenge that each day being on prep brings. There are so many challenges that I am trying my best to adjust to not only physical, but mental challenges as well. I’m normally a pretty disciplined person, so the strict diet isn’t terrible for me. However, I do notice my thought patterns more apparently, and can see the way I think about food more clearly. There are times that I want to eat because of discomfort I’m feeling, but I question myself. I also find myself a lot more irritable toward other people and their negative habits, which is the main thing that I am trying to work on. I’m trying to channel all of that toward just doing better for myself each day and as motivation to keep pushing myself harder, because I don’t want to be average.
The average person may have a goal, and talk themselves out of it the next day. People can be so passionate about something and then not care the next minute. It seems that people do not understand what a commitment is nowadays. It means going forward no matter how you are feeling or what is going on around you. You can always find a way to make something happen if you truly care about it. It is perfectly okay to question yourself, but it isn’t okay to give up, unless you realize that the goal is something that would cause more harm in your life than good. If your goal is driven by your ego and has no real meaning to you, then by all means, reevaluate. Anyways, this is just my opinion, and a lot of people may disagree with me but that’s how I feel.
I’ve been experiencing some ups and downs, but I have been trying to have a better attitude and use this structure that I have in my life as a platform in other areas of my life as well. I like being organized, and each day I pick an area that I want to work on, and I focus on that. It can get lonely being so focused on something that not a lot of people around me understand, but for the first time in my life probably ever, I am pretty alright with myself and who I am as a person. I want things, but I don’t need things.
A lot of people might not want to do what I’m doing. A lot of women might not want to look like what I’m going to look like, and that’s fine. A few years ago I probably wouldn’t have went for it either, but you live and you grow! Life is all about making gains, not just in bodybuilding, but all areas! I went off on a bunch of tangents in this post, but I hope everyone has a great and safe New Year’s Eve and an awesome New Year ahead ❤