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Seeking balance while on prep…

I’m enjoying this structure and challenge that each day being on prep brings. There are so many challenges that I am trying my best to adjust to not only physical, but mental challenges as well. I’m normally a pretty disciplined person, so the strict diet isn’t terrible for me. However, I do notice my thought patterns more apparently, and can see the way I think about food more clearly. There are times that I want to eat because of discomfort I’m feeling, but I question myself. I also find myself a lot more irritable toward other people and their negative habits, which is the main thing that I am trying to work on. I’m trying to channel all of that toward just doing better for myself each day and as motivation to keep pushing myself harder, because I don’t want to be average.

The average person may have a goal, and talk themselves out of it the next day. People can be so passionate about something and then not care the next minute. It seems that people do not understand what a commitment is nowadays. It means going forward no matter how you are feeling or what is going on around you. You can always find a way to make something happen if you truly care about it. It is perfectly okay to question yourself, but it isn’t okay to give up, unless you realize that the goal is something that would cause more harm in your life than good. If your goal is driven by your ego and has no real meaning to you, then by all means, reevaluate. Anyways, this is just my opinion, and a lot of people may disagree with me but that’s how I feel.

I’ve been experiencing some ups and downs, but I have been trying to have a better attitude and use this structure that I have in my life as a platform in other areas of my life as well. I like being organized, and each day I pick an area that I want to work on, and I focus on that. It can get lonely being so focused on something that not a lot of people around me understand, but for the first time in my life probably ever, I am pretty alright with myself and who I am as a person. I want things, but I don’t need things.

A lot of people might not want to do what I’m doing. A lot of women might not want to look like what I’m going to look like, and that’s fine. A few years ago I probably wouldn’t have went for it either, but you live and you grow! Life is all about making gains, not just in bodybuilding, but all areas! I went off on a bunch of tangents in this post, but I hope everyone has a great and safe New Year’s Eve and an awesome New Year ahead ❤


New jobs, New goals!

Hi! So, a lot of cool things have been going on in my life the past few weeks. It’s funny how a change in perspective and attitude can transform your life. Energy is really a crazy thing! I was in a bit of a funk I guess, being in between jobs and I’m happy and grateful to say that it has come to an end.

When you are in a better head space, a lot of great and positive things can come to you. I got two new jobs the past few weeks and they are both things that I wanted to do for a while. Both are in the fields that I am interested in and I have an opportunity to help a lot of people and learn a lot also. There is always so much to learn and I never want to stop learning.

I started working at Vitamin Shoppe, which is perfect for me because I love nutrition, wellness and of course, supplements! I feel like a kid in a candy store being around so many supplements all day :p .

I also got a new personal training job working for a company called The Fit Fem, which is exactly the type of company I’ve been dreaming of. It is an in-home personal training company that specifically focuses on training for women with the mindset of helping women feel more confident and comfortable in their bodies. I love the vision and I am so excited to start with them.

ALSO, aside from all that awesome stuff, I made the decision to compete in my first NPC Bikini competition in April. This is something that I never thought that I would be able to do, but I am going to do it. I’ve been amazing myself lately with the progress I have been making now that my body is permitting it since feeling better from my accident. This is going to be a journey full of hard work, but I am excited to experience each step of it. I will be posting a lot on my progress and posting some progress pictures later on. 🙂

This is a big goal, but life is about challenging yourself and learning, so I think we should all set big goals! You never know what you are capable of achieving until you try and push it!

On that note, have a great day all.

Follow Your Passion.. No Matter What

Good Morning peoples. It’s Monday, and I’ve actually learned to love Mondays because they are a chance to have a more successful week than the last. I woke up at 530 AM, which is my favorite time of day because it is quiet and I am the most calm. I spent a lot of time thinking about what I want out of life and what I really want to be doing for the rest of my life.

I love training, it’s what I am most passionate about. I always want to be in the health/fitness/nutrition industry, no matter what. Being a trainer is the most awesome job, but it is definitely challenging to get started. I am currently not working at a gym and I would be lying if I said it wasn’t difficult getting new clients outside of a gym at this moment in time. I love nutrition, but I’m not so sure I am up to going back to college to get another degree at this point in my life. I feel a little stuck, but I like to use these times to figure out a new plan of action that will make me the happiest. I want to help as many people as possible become healthier, happier versions of themselves and to learn to validate themselves through making healthier decisions. I want to help people treat themselves better because doing that has transformed my life and I can’t stress that enough. People always suggest choosing a different path and that is just simply NOT going to happen. If you have something you are passionate about, go after it. Don’t let people discourage you because it is not the path that they would choose for themselves.

Progress is Progress!

Good morning! I just wanted to do a check in and put things in perspective for myself and anyone else if they are currently struggling with body acceptance. So, I’ve been working hard and making good progress, but from time to time I still struggle with accepting my body where it is. It seems I am always busting my ass and sometimes it seems like results should be coming faster, but that is not the case. Results take time, especially once you are already pretty fit. Last night I was trying on clothes at the mall and the lighting made me hate my body for a few minutes. Many people struggle with body dysmorphia, and it can be really frustrating.

I’ve been in a little bit of a funk since yesterday, but today is a new day, and I refuse to sit in those negative feelings. In the past I may have, but today I have an opportunity to move forward and keep at it.  The journey isn’t all physical, it brings up all kinds of emotional discomfort as well. I am aware of this from having had experienced this in the past. However, this time I wont let that stop me or take me off course. Instead, I will work harder and be patient with myself. I know it will be that much more rewarding in the long run.

Helpful Perspective Changer

Some days we wake up with feelings we don’t enjoy feeling, but a good way to shake it off a little bit is to write something down. It can be anything, preferably some kind of positive affirmations to snap your self out of that mindset. When I wake up feeling sluggish or out of it, I like to remind myself that I AM capable of whatever it is that I am in the process of accomplishing. It can be painful to write when we aren’t feeling good about ourselves or where we are in that moment, but it does help change your perspective for the most important part of your day, which is the morning!

This does not guarantee that you will have a perfect day or that you still won’t struggle a little that day, but it does help a lot of the time. It gives you an opportunity to psych yourself up and maybe even get a little pumped to get out of bed and get things going! Also, ALWAYS have some kind of plan. Structure is a huge motivator. Set goals for the day, but realistic ones. Like Arnold Schwarzenegger said, “sleep faster” because there are only 24 hours in a day and most people sleep 16. There are only so many hours, so make them count. We all only have so much time on this Earth in this body, so each day try to make the most of things.

Nutrition VERY Basics, Just Because..


This is pretty much as basic as it gets in terms of calorie breakdown, but it is not by any means, the be all/end all. Different goals require different manipulation of these macro-nutrients. macro-nutrients are essential, and include carbohydrates, proteins and fats. Our bodies require each of these nutrients to function properly and efficiently.

Carbs are our bodies’ main source of energy. Carbs are stored as glycogen in our liver and muscles. Generally speaking, carbs should make up 50-65% of your daily calorie intake (assuming a 2,000 cal daily diet). NOT everyone should be consuming 2,000 calories daily depending on a lot of things, but its a guideline.  High-glycemic carbs should be eaten after a workout preferably, because that is when the body is using them for fuel for recovery)-Just something to consider

Protein is essential for muscle repair and growth. Proteins contain essential amino acids that can’t be taken in aside from diet. Protein is important for blood clotting, hormone regulation and muscle repair and growth. Protein should make up 10-15% of our daily calories (again, based on 2,000). Generally, there should be one gram of protein consumed per pound of body weight. This can be manipulated according to a person’s goal as well. It’s ALWAYS important to get your protein in. I suggest eating 30 grams of protein every 3 hours. That would be ideal for me, or someone like me, who is trying to grow or at least maintain my gains that I have now. But this isn’t about me, just a guideline. I weigh almost 140 (hard to believe, I know) and I eat around 120-140 grams of protein daily. It’s not uncommon for me to eat 12 egg-whites throughout the day amongst other things.

Now let’s talk about everyone’s favorite word, FATS. Fat is really nothing to be intimidated about. We need healthy fats in our diets to help us get rid of the fat we don’t want. Fats should make up 20-30% of our diet. Healthy fats include almonds, avocados and nuts. It’s really about the quality of fats that we put into our bodies that affects us.

SO, I hope I refreshed some knowledge for anyone or taught anyone anything they didn’t already know. Peace!

Cortisol and Fat Loss

So, my newest display of neuroticism involves Cortisol production. Cortisol is knows as the “stress hormone,” and is essential to the human body to keep us alive when exposed to stress. However, excessive Cortisol production can lead to health problems like a weakened immune system, high blood pressure, and excess fat storage. The last is what is making me crazy. Cortisol levels can become elevated from lack of sleep, overtraining and insufficient stress management.

Though Cortisol has important benefits like supplying us with short bursts of energy, improved memory and homeostasis of the body, it makes it more difficult to lose fat regardless of effort. I’ve been training harder and more often than any other time in my life, and I am having a hard time losing fat at a rate that I am happy with. I am on a thermogenic supplement, which is a fat burner, and I get the sense that something isn’t exactly right with the rate of my progress.

I’ve made big changes in my fitness program and I still want more than I’m seeing right now. I am happy with my results on Alphamine so far, but I’m nervous that my elevated Cortisol levels from insufficient sleep, intense training and several other things will eventually place me a plateau. This is my worst nightmare, so I refuse to let this happen.

I’ve found that getting enough sleep is the most difficult thing to follow through with and maintain. I’m going to make a serious effort to sleep more and to overall train smarter and treat myself better. I’m sure I’m not alone in thinking that doing more is always better, but maybe that is not the case. Though it has been found that more conditioned individuals have less Cortisol released from training, it is important to find a balance between overtraining and being lazy. I don’t want to use this as an excuse, I just want to continue to progress, so stress management is going to become more of a priority.

That’s my rant of the day, and I encourage everyone to sleep more and find a balance between training with proper intensity for their goals while also finding time for necessary relaxation.