Hi there! I wanted to post about something that I am currently experiencing that has been the biggest obstacle I have encountered on this journey so far. I am a super focused person and this prep so far has revealed that to me and made it more apparent than it has ever been. However, I have noticed myself becoming more and more isolated and to be honest, not a pleasant person to be around.
I think dedication is an amazing thing, and I value that so much. What I don’t value though is that I have been pretty terrible to the people close to me, mostly my Mom and family. I have had no filter and no serenity the past few weeks and it is taking a toll on me. I feel that this is due to my body adjusting and my hormones not knowing what to do. I have felt sick for about a week now with vertigo, nausea and headaches. My sleep was suffering as well and this probably has a lot to do with it also.
It can be a combination of things, but that is not the point of this post. Yesterday morning I took it out on my family again, and each time it happens, I am less ok with it. I am the kind of person who likes to live in the solution and keep things moving. I don’t like to repeat my mistakes over and over again only to keep doing that same behavior if it hurts the people closest to me.
I questioned if doing the show was really worth it if I couldn’t control my actions or emotions, but I decided to follow through regardless. I realized that there is more than one way to do things, and if one way isn’t working I can go another route to get to my goal. This means I might have to go more outside my comfort zone and reach out for help, even though I like to be a hero and do everything myself.
To wrap up this rant, it is perfectly ok to question your motives and make sure your goal is worth the sacrifice. My main reason for doing this is to become a better version of myself. I want to grow, not live in the negative behaviors I were expressing. I realize I have a lot of work to do on myself. This isn’t bad. Everyone has room to improve.
Have a great weekend 🙂
Good morning everyone! Happy Monday! I’m feeling pretty damn good about this being the first full week of 2016. I was never really one to come up with New Year’s resolutions, because I try my best to live with integrity every single day and always have a few goals that I’m working toward. Timing will NEVER perfect in anyones lives, so I’m a firm believer in just going for what you want and what is going to grow you and get you closer to who/what you want to be.
I’ve found that sharing my journey with other people makes me feel better and hope that it inspires people as well. I decided to try and grow my social media platforms to reach more people and connect with more people who have similar goals for themselves, not only through fitness but to just do better in life in general. I wanted to post about this because it helps with accountability to tell other people about it. OK, so the point of this post is that I have decided to start a youtube channel. I’ve had one to watch other people’s videos, but I have never posted anything of my own. I have no idea how to really use it, but we all have to start somewhere and that is what I’m going to do. I will post it when it’s up in case anyone is interested.
Have a lovely week friends.
I’m enjoying this structure and challenge that each day being on prep brings. There are so many challenges that I am trying my best to adjust to not only physical, but mental challenges as well. I’m normally a pretty disciplined person, so the strict diet isn’t terrible for me. However, I do notice my thought patterns more apparently, and can see the way I think about food more clearly. There are times that I want to eat because of discomfort I’m feeling, but I question myself. I also find myself a lot more irritable toward other people and their negative habits, which is the main thing that I am trying to work on. I’m trying to channel all of that toward just doing better for myself each day and as motivation to keep pushing myself harder, because I don’t want to be average.
The average person may have a goal, and talk themselves out of it the next day. People can be so passionate about something and then not care the next minute. It seems that people do not understand what a commitment is nowadays. It means going forward no matter how you are feeling or what is going on around you. You can always find a way to make something happen if you truly care about it. It is perfectly okay to question yourself, but it isn’t okay to give up, unless you realize that the goal is something that would cause more harm in your life than good. If your goal is driven by your ego and has no real meaning to you, then by all means, reevaluate. Anyways, this is just my opinion, and a lot of people may disagree with me but that’s how I feel.
I’ve been experiencing some ups and downs, but I have been trying to have a better attitude and use this structure that I have in my life as a platform in other areas of my life as well. I like being organized, and each day I pick an area that I want to work on, and I focus on that. It can get lonely being so focused on something that not a lot of people around me understand, but for the first time in my life probably ever, I am pretty alright with myself and who I am as a person. I want things, but I don’t need things.
A lot of people might not want to do what I’m doing. A lot of women might not want to look like what I’m going to look like, and that’s fine. A few years ago I probably wouldn’t have went for it either, but you live and you grow! Life is all about making gains, not just in bodybuilding, but all areas! I went off on a bunch of tangents in this post, but I hope everyone has a great and safe New Year’s Eve and an awesome New Year ahead ❤
I was having an interesting week last week and I was questioning my intentions for being so motivated toward this goal. I wanted to make sure my motivations were coming from a good place, and I put some thought into it and this is what I came up with:
-I’m looking for something within myself. I want to know what I’m capable of and uncover strength I didn’t know I had.
-I want to be more of a part of a lifestyle that I already love so much and want to learn as much as I can.
-I want to inspire myself and others and show that people can follow through with their goals no matter what is happening around them. Too many people talk themselves out of their goals.
-I want my body to reflect the lifestyle that I live
-I want to be around similar minded people that want similar things for themselves
-I want to focus all of my energy on bettering myself
The goal was to start doing this a lot sooner, but my life has been pretty crazy the past few months. I had a few things come up with family and other things that were top priority in my life. All is well now, and I have been working toward a really important goal of mine. This has been a really amazing year in a lot of ways. Above everything else, I stuck to what I said I was going to do. I lived with integrity and I followed through on several different goals that I didn’t think I was capable of even a year ago.
I achieved a lot of things that ended up proving myself wrong regarding my limitations. I got certified in fitness nutrition and I am in the process of studying for my corrective exercise specialization certification. I also finally took kickboxing lessons like I had been wanting to. I doubt I will ever do much with that skill, but the point is that I followed through with it!
NOW, the fun part. I am also in the process of training for my first NPC Figure competition on April 9th, 2016. This is a goal that I talked myself out of for a little while, but I decided to go for it, and it is the best decision I have ever made for myself. I am loving the shit out of the process and I am so excited about what is to come. Every day is a challenge, but I am learning A LOT about myself and about life. I am definitely going to post more about things that I am learning and experiencing.
Hi! So, a lot of cool things have been going on in my life the past few weeks. It’s funny how a change in perspective and attitude can transform your life. Energy is really a crazy thing! I was in a bit of a funk I guess, being in between jobs and I’m happy and grateful to say that it has come to an end.
When you are in a better head space, a lot of great and positive things can come to you. I got two new jobs the past few weeks and they are both things that I wanted to do for a while. Both are in the fields that I am interested in and I have an opportunity to help a lot of people and learn a lot also. There is always so much to learn and I never want to stop learning.
I started working at Vitamin Shoppe, which is perfect for me because I love nutrition, wellness and of course, supplements! I feel like a kid in a candy store being around so many supplements all day :p .
I also got a new personal training job working for a company called The Fit Fem, which is exactly the type of company I’ve been dreaming of. It is an in-home personal training company that specifically focuses on training for women with the mindset of helping women feel more confident and comfortable in their bodies. I love the vision and I am so excited to start with them.
ALSO, aside from all that awesome stuff, I made the decision to compete in my first NPC Bikini competition in April. This is something that I never thought that I would be able to do, but I am going to do it. I’ve been amazing myself lately with the progress I have been making now that my body is permitting it since feeling better from my accident. This is going to be a journey full of hard work, but I am excited to experience each step of it. I will be posting a lot on my progress and posting some progress pictures later on. 🙂
This is a big goal, but life is about challenging yourself and learning, so I think we should all set big goals! You never know what you are capable of achieving until you try and push it!
On that note, have a great day all.