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Getting Through Struggles..Going Forward

I want to take some time and talk about something that I found myself really struggling with the past 2 weeks of prep. This is something that I haven’t had a problem with in a long time and I am still pretty baffled about what brought it on, and that problem is binging. It started as a cheat meal, then turned into a reefed, then turned into an all out binge. This happened several times.

I’m sure it is completely normal to feel hungry and depleted during contest prep, but this was something different. I feel so many different emotions about it- a lot of guilt, shame, and negative feelings that I never want to feel. It’s hard for me to even talk about it because I am a perfectionist and like to believe that I have more control than I do in every situation.

I kept trying to undo the damage I had done by trying to do crazy amounts of cardio and lifts, but this did not work. I felt completely fatigued, like a hamster on a wheel. I knew this wasn’t going to work, so I did some research.

I came across a nice reminder. That reminder was that I should avoid having that restricted mentality. I have a goal and it is an aggressive one. HOWEVER, I can eat whatever I want, if I wanted. If I do that, I won’t be stepping on stage in April if I decided to keep going down that road.

So, the key is to not think that you can’t have something. You CAN, have it. You can also make a choice NOT to have it, because it isn’t conducive to your success and your goals and because it just most likely isn’t good for your body. This is so simple, but it was just what I needed to get myself back on track and serious. Remembering you have a choice is simple, but so helpful. You can make a choice that will take you away from your goal and ultimately your own happiness, or you can make a choice that will help you get to your goal. I chose the second.

It is never cut and dry. I think some people can benefit greatly from cheat meals or refeeds. I can when I’m not on prep. However, I have an addictive personality so its all or nothing for me right now. I am glad that I am aware of that and can now continue to move forward and give it my all until show day J


Cleaning up My Diet and Update on My Progress :)

So, a lot of exciting changes have been taking place for me lately. I just wanted to share my progress and what I have been doing differently recently that has been making a HUGE difference in my energy and my training. I was in an accident back in January that left me with 3 herniated discs in my neck and a pinched nerve. Since the accident, I have had a lot of setbacks, discomfort and struggles with my training. The pinched nerve left me with a weaker left arm, which has been frustrating during lifting.

I recently switched from PT to Chiropractic therapy, which has made such a difference in my energy and comfort levels. I finally feel like my CNS is communicating with my body a lot better, and I’m not in as much pain. I don’t feel as restricted in my lifting, even though I am still mindful and careful.

I felt ready two weeks ago to increase my training volume and intensity, and I got a lot of motivation back that I was missing SO much.  I feel strong and capable for the first time in a long time and I am BEYOND grateful. I decided to start training for a competition, which I never thought I could do before. I have been doing a lot of research on nutrition as well, and I have changed my diet a lot as a result even though I was already eating pretty clean. I started recording everything and paying closer attention to my macros. Some of the biggest changes I have been incorporating that have been the most helpful are drinking at least a gallon of water a day, adding more essential fats into my diet, getting more sleep, changing up my splits and having less protein shakes/bars and sticking to mostly whole foods. The last has made a huge difference in the way my body feels. I try to stick to one shake a day (right after my workout) and I try to avoid quest bars, which has been the hardest! I didn’t think I would be able to hit my daily protein goal without multiple shakes/bars a day, but it hasn’t been as hard as I thought. It just requires more meal prepping and food shopping.

I will definitely be posting more on my progress because I have a lot to share about 🙂